I am truly heart broken. Just a few weeks ago I shared with you our loss of our wonderful 14 year old cat Maui. We lost him to cancer just a couple of weeks after diagnosis. It was a heartbreaking and devastating ordeal for all of us. I know that we were grieving the loss of Maui but last week we found out how much it took a toll on Indy our other cat. The day I left for Ranger U Indy passed away from sudden respiratory and kidney failure. I found out later that stress (like the loss of Maui) can trigger it and cause death. We had NO idea that anything was wrong with her. She like my husband and I were all saddened my Maui's passing and she was much more clingy in the week since he was gone but nothing signaled anything medically wrong. That morning my husband had dropped me at the airport and went to work as usual, after work he came home to spend time with her but when he called out for her she gave a cry that he knew something was wrong. He found her in distress and rushed her immediately to our vet. After 2 hours of tests, oxygen, and IVs they said there was nothing they could further do and sent him to another Dr. Tim drove as fast as he could the 20 min. drive but Indy passed in Tim's arms just moments from reaching the Dr office. Tim had them try to resesitate her but it was unsuccessful. We are beside ourselves with the loss of not 1 but both of our cats within 2 weeks. Since I was in New Jersey for Ranger U I was not there and my husband didn't at first want to tell me (I knew something was up the first day I talked to him, I could hear it in his voice). When he did tell me I went immediately to disbeleif and that is where I have stayed since. I am still waiting for her to come strutting into the room and jump on my lap, I will find myself grabbing for a can of catfood in the morning, I want to hear the jingle of her collar.
We got Maui 14 years ago, shortly after we got married. He was a stray that someone found. When we got him he was covered in fleas and was so tiny. The picture below is of his first bath.
Maui just grew...and grew...
and GREW!!!
to a whopping 20 lbs. The vet said he was health and not overeating.
He was just Maui and was a BIG cat.
Indy came along shortly after we got Maui. You could say she adopted us. She was a stray in our neighborhood. A very mean stray, I fed her for a long time but could never get to close (she would hiss and growl). Then one day when we were getting our house painted the painters tossed her in our house thinking she was ours. We took her to the vet and reported her to the police to see if anyone was missing her but no one claimed her. At the vet we got her a check up, all her shots and had a bullet removed that was lodged in her hip and then brought her home to begin the lengthy task of socializing her. Once she realized she could trust us and she was safe she was glued to our side all day and night. She was our little princess and her and Maui became best buds.
Maui and Indy loved hanging out together especially checking out the wildlife
around our house and taking LONG naps together.
Indy was often my assistant as she was always by my side, it didn't matter what I was doing she was trying to help. We will permantly have an Indy paw print on our table in the game room because she was trying to "help" me when I was stamping with archival ink and walked across the ink pad. At the time I tryed to get the print off but Now I'm glad she did it.
I also found out early on that Indy loved to be the center of attention and loved to model anything. If you look at pictures that she wearing something she sits up proud and is like "look at me!" She was quite the character! She somehow knew when I was taking pictures to look all cute, Maui usually closed his eyes for the camera and just wanted his belly rubbed.
Indy loved looking at live through her favorite rose color glasses
We didn't always have her dressed up.
I'm not like a crazy cat lady or anything but at Christmas we would break out a Christmas outfit because Indy was sure to be there in the middle of helping decorate the house.
Indy loved just about everyone but Maui was a bit more picky on who he let into his circle of friends so we were just tickled that every morning that Kyler came over Maui would romp downstairs to say goodmorning to baby Kyler. Last week I could tell that Kyler was looking around for the cats it broke my heart that they won't be greeting him anymore.
I am hoping by journaling this it will help me begin to deal with the loss of Indy and Maui. My husband and I have discussed it and we both agree that we do not want another cat at this time. No cat or kitten could compare to Maui or Indy and it just would not be fair to them or to use to try to fill the hole in our hearts with something that isn't them. They were more than just pets, they were family. They will be truly missed!
Oh honey, I am so sorry....pets are family and it's a great big hole that is left when they are gone. Big hugs and you may find, in time, that you want to give out another piece of you heart to that special one. Hugs, Katrina
ReplyDeleteChristie, so sorry for your loss. They sound like wonderful members of your family. Thank you for sharing about them. I know my birds are part of my family and don't know how I would deal with a loss like this. (((((Hugs)))))
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful story you wrote to remember them by. I'm so sorry for your loss. I too have an almost 16 year old dog who won't be around much longer; and I'm concerned how my 6 year old dog will do with her loss.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. I have a dog who has cancer right now and he is our baby. I told my husband the other day, it was a good thing that Samson was not a female dog, cause I would so totally have a whole wardrobe for that dog! He does have a few "holiday" outfits though.
ReplyDeleteAgain, you are in my thoughts and prayers, so sorry for your loss.
Marilyn C.
I am so sorry about your loss. Cats are amazing pets. Hugs, Beverly
ReplyDeleteOh - i am so very sorry. My husband and I have 2 cats. Maui looks just like one of our cats, who is 22 pounds. It is amzing how they just climb right into your life and hearts. Thoughts and prayers are being sent from our furry house to yours.
ReplyDeleteChristie, sorry for your loss. I understand the loss of a furkid, having gone through it myself. My thoughts are with you during this difficult time. Hugs FiLoMa
ReplyDeleteChristie I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband.
ReplyDeleteSandy Y.
My heart go out to you guys. One is a big enough hole in your heart but 2 is way to hard.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear about the loss of your fur babies. Thanks for sharing the photos I know how hard this must be for you.
ReplyDeleteCyber Hugs
Carol
Oh how heartbreaking Christi!!! I'm so sorry for your loss of your babies!!!! They'll be at the Rainbow Bridge waiting for their mama!!!!
ReplyDeleteI understand how you feel I lost my cat of 14 yrs also, He went real fast also one day he was fine and the next he was gone... the one on the sewing machine looks like my smokey....
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about your babies. I do know how you feel, they are our four legged children and when we loose them, we loose a part of our family. My heart and prayers goes out to you my dear.
ReplyDeleteSending you a great big hug.
Cathie
Christie
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story and I hope by sharing it brings you some comfort. In the last 9 months we have had to part with our 3 beloved "furbabies" so we share your pain.
I, like you, do not want any more because they are family and you can not replace them.
Myrna
Christie, so sorry to hear of your dear cats passings so close together. It is heartbreaking enough to lose one but both so close together... just not fair. Please know I am thinking of you. Hugs, Julie H.
ReplyDeleteChristie - So sorry for your loss. They are such an amazing part of our lives and then they are gone. Such sadness...remember them in joy for all the love you shared...sue
ReplyDeleteWhat sweet kitties. I am so sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you. Faye
ReplyDeleteso very sorry for your loss...
ReplyDeletehugs,
Liz
I'm so very sorry for your loss and totally understand the way you feel.
ReplyDeletePeople who don't have pets, will never understand why they're family.
Had to part from one cat at my parent's exactly 10 years ago (6th May), also due to cancer (nose), at the age of 17 and we had to let her daughter go 3 years later at the age of 20 (it was her age and kidney and other eldery problems, her heart was still strong enough...).
When I went to my parents I always missed the lovely ones. Now I have 2 cats of myself (already 5 years next month old, they're sisters) and really love them. They will never "replace" the first ones, but It's so much more fun with them around...
Thank you so much for sharing your story! It's heartbreaking and know how you feel!
*big hugs*
I want to thank you for sharing this with us. Both Indy and Maui were beautiful cats. You were very privileged to have had them in your life. I loved seeing all the wonderful pictures of your two little (ok one was big ) critters. Hugs
ReplyDeleteJoanne
I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how devastating it is to lose a pet, and here you've lost two! I hope you'll open your hearts and doors to another since there are so many who can use a loving home!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear of your loss. I know how hard it can be to lose such a precious furry friend. They forever leave paw prints on our hearts. I hope someday you'll be able to open your heart and home to another furry friend when the time is right. Hugs, Lorna
ReplyDeleteSo sorry about your lost and know just know how you and your family are feeling. I've been there before and it's not easy. I love the awesome pictures you posted of your gorgeous cats. My prayers are with you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry Christie. I know exactly how you feel. Early this year two of my cats, brother and sister that I both bottlefed, died within 3 days of eachother. My little Philomena, 6 yrs old, had a blood disorder and I had to have her put to sleep. Two days later someone came to our house, held the door open talking even though a sign says keep door closed, and Buster ran out the door. Before I could even catch him, he was hit by a car. I was in tears for days. I wish I could give you a big hug and ease your heart pain.
ReplyDeleteChristie,
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear of your loss. I know that our animals are our family and I would be devastated to lose my baby pup. I know you must be so heartbroken and I'm praying for you sweetie! Take care,
Your friend
Claudine
I am so very sorry for your loss. I too had to put down my 12 sweet boy in October. All I can say is that it will get better and when you feel you can, get new ones. I got two WILD black brothers and I love them. They will never be as wonderful as Flyboy was, but they fill the hole in my heart.
ReplyDeleteBeing a huge cat lover myself, I feel your pain.
ReplyDeletethe boys that I have now each sleep under an arm with their legs wrapped around me. I have a little girl Maltese who believes that she is a cat. she sleeps on the pillow stretched so that she can reach each boy with a body part thus I am circled in love as I sleep. They are all getting to the age where I am starting to worry of who will break the circle of life first and now you have reminded me that they LIKE US grieve and can grieve themselves to death. I fear for that day. but like you know that I will be able to recall all the loving moments that they gave to us and will survive. You are very wise to not go out and get another cat. may be in 6 months or longer another cat will reach out to you with that certain look that will remind you of one of yours and you will know that this is the cat that is meant to become part of your home. Bless.
cat s.
So sorry for your loss. What a wonderful thing to love and be loved by a cat. Dog people just don't get it. I had the honor of having my first kitty Boo Boo for 19 years. I was 19 when I adopted her. Now, two cats later I can tell you that you will never replace your beloved Maui and Indy but you may find room in your heart for a new cat with their own personality to love. Hard to even think of that now I'm sure. I'm so glad you have the wonderful pictures of you kitties. The paw print is great! I sit here typing as my 12 yo moved across the screen and my 2 yo cat is on the desk to my left. It makes me sad to even think of them not being here with me in the morning. You and your family are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. I had wonderful O'Malley for 17 years until he passed so I do understand the hole in your heart. I know you will never forget your wonderful fur babies but hope that time will help and your memories will make you feel better one day.
ReplyDeleteChristie, I am so sorry about the loss of not only one, but both of your treasured cats. They look like they had a wonderful life with you. I also lost a cat 2 months ago, and my second cat (looks a LOT like Maui but orange) is a lot more cuddly than she used to be. I can tell she misses he "big sister". We will be getting a kitten for her in July. I hope, after the pain of losing your cats has subsided a bit, that you will be able to give some new cats the benefits of your cat-love!
ReplyDeleteOh Christie! What a wonderful tribute! Maui and Indy sure had a lot of personality :). I love that you will forever have the archival paw print. 7 years ago I lost My kitties- Tiger and Sweetz - but they are forever in my heart. Big hugs to you!!
ReplyDeleteI am sitting here with tears in my eyes, for your loss and also remembering the cats I have lost. So sorry for you.
ReplyDeleteChristie - I am so sorry for your heartbreaking loss. Your journaling is beautiful - what a wonderful tribute to your cats. And the photos made me both laugh out loud and tear up. I hope that your memories will help you find comfort knowing that you loved and cared for your cats and that they loved and trusted you.
ReplyDeleteThat is heartbreaking for you. How nice to read about them and how much they were loved! Take the time to grief the loss.
ReplyDeleteI send hugs, as a mom to 3 fur babies, I know the attachment and the characters each one take as they establish in our hearts. hugs
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss, and that you were out of town when your baby passed. I have 3 "boys" who are my world, so I understand how much your babies meant to you. Sending you warm hugs - wish I could ease your burden.
ReplyDeleteOh Christie I am truly sorry for your loss....I know how hard it is to lose a very loved pet.....sending hugs to you and your family!!!!
ReplyDeleteChristie, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can certainly relate, as I just lost my "baby girl" Sassy a week ago. She was 12 years old. I still have her brother, Franky, who has had separate anxiety all his life, but he's doing better than I thought - although he blocks the door to try to stop me from leaving. Indie and Maui are beautiful, and I know you had years of love and joy with them, and that you'll always cherish those memories. You are right, Maui was BIG. Treasure the memories; they make us smile.
ReplyDeletemy sincerest sympathies on the loss of your 'family members'. thanks for sharing the awesome pictures.
ReplyDeletemaureen
Christie,
ReplyDeleteI am writing this to you through tears, so excuse any misspellings please! I am so very sorry for the loss of your dear cats. I have two right now myself and I would be devastated to lose them. I have lost dear ones over the years and it is never easy. In time, you might want to consider getting another, but for now give yourself time to grieve and heal. People who don;t have pets don't understand how much a part of our lives and families they become. They truly are our children. They keep our secrets, comfort us and love us unconditionally - how many people do we know who do that?!
Thanks for writing about them and letting us know about who they were and what they meant to you and your husband. They were beautiful, inside and out and you gave them a loving home and they knew that, let that provide some comfort to you in this terrible time.
May God bless you and bring you peace,
Maureen
Oh, I am so sorry about your loss. I have 3 senior cats right now, and we lost two of them over the years. You are so right when you say they are part of the family. My cats all refused to pose for photos...so the only ones I have of them are blurry, and from the back, but I don't have to look at a photo to remember every detail. Your photos of Maui and Indy are so precious, and you can tell how much they were loved. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteChristie. I am so sorry to read about your loss. I had to give up my 20-year old cat several years ago and have never been able to consider another one. I am convinced that we will see our furry children in heaven.
ReplyDeleteChristie: My heart is aching for you and your kittie-babies. So, so sad. Over the years, we have gone through loss of out pets, but I can only imagine your pain and sadness losing two in such a short time. As some say, they will be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge. Hugs, Mary Ann
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your "fur children". I know exactly how you feel, my friend. Inky Hugs, Cindy
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for the loss of your cats. I watch your videos and I remember seeing Indy struttin by the camera. Indy was like your little assistant. What a terrible thing to go through and I hope time will heal your pain. So truly sorry for you.
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking of you since Ranger U, I know how painful it is to lose a pet and I'm sending hugs from Canada!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your lost. Years ago my kitty at the time, Parkay got hit by a car and died. A couple weeks later, Sunrise died of a broken heart. Last year I had to put my two cats to rest. I still miss Sidd and no cat can replace him, but we did get a new baby to keep the remaining cat happy. I know how your feel about not wanting to get any more cats. However, Dusty has brought new life into the house -he'll never be Sidd even though he does things that remind me of my boy - but he has brought fun back to this house that was more like a nursing home before with two ailing cats. My heart goes out to you and your family. They sure do take a piece of our hearts.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for your tremendous loss. My heart hurts for you. I know nothing could ever replace them but I pray in the days to come the wonderful memories and the love shared between you will slowly replace tears with smiles. As a pet lover and from following your blog, it is easy to see they were blessed to be so loved for all their years. All pets should be so lucky. ((((HUGS))) to you.
ReplyDeleteGosh, what a blow to the family! So, so sorry about your cats. I feel so bad for your husband too. That must've been awful. God bless!
ReplyDeleteSorry for your loss sweetie. They were 2 of the most photogenic cats I ever saw.. My heart and prayers are with you all, God Bless.
ReplyDeleteChristie, I am sorry for your unhappiness about your babies. I understand planning to wait for a while to try to replace them (which can never really happen), but from your story, each animal chose you. Perhaps another cat will need you and show up at your house when you are ready.
ReplyDeleteI lost my 18 year old sweet brother and sister cats within a month of each other a few years back. It was devastating, they lived their entire 18 years with me and I still cry when I look at their pictures or talk about them. About a year before their death, I found a kitten in the road on the way home from work, both eyes were infected and he couldn't open them. When the vet cleaned and opened his eyes, I saw they were BLUE. I told the vet I'd find a home for him but I fell in love with Rummy and he is the most unique cat I have ever shared my home with. When the other 2 died, Rummy was lonely so adopted another cat for him. I can't imagine my life without cats in my home. Don't rule out more cats, there are wonderful fur babies out there that need your love. No they are not going to replace the others but they help fill the hole in your heart with their sweet love.
ReplyDeleteChristie - I'm sending big hugs, and I know how you feel. May your happy memories of your babies bring you joy when the heart break eases. It's been 3 years since we lost our fur baby, and while we still have sad days we find that we can now talk about her and all her funny little ways and remember our girl and all the love she brought to our family with joy. One more quick hug coming your way...
ReplyDeleteI'm heartbroken for you. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteFondly, Tami
thisandthatfromtami.blogspot.com
Such a loss they really steal our hearts.
ReplyDeleteOh Christie,
ReplyDeleteI do know how completely devastating it is to lose our fur babies. They touch our hearts in ways that are so special and bring pure joy into our lives. I made a 4 page list of all the funny and endearing things my last baby did in the days following and I know I would have forgotten some things otherwise. 5 years later I still pull out my special list and the smiles fill my heart and I am so grateful for our wonderful time together. I pray for your healing and for amazing new angels to come fill your heart again....
With deepest sympathy,
pamicat
My heart goes out to you. i lost 3 within a few months of each other, I have one left of the family, and she is 15 ys old, so far in great health. I miss them every day.
ReplyDeleteOne day I may get others but not yet, I'll enjoy this last one for as long as she is around
Jocelyn
I'm so sorry to read about the loss of your precious kitties. It is so very hard to lose a pet, let alone TWO!
ReplyDeleteWe have had that kind of year around here too. First, Sir Grumpy died. He was my DDs hamster. Then w/in a couple of months, Stripes, our funny hen, died of a mystery injury that no one saw in time. It was hidden under her feathers. She was acting just fine, until it was too late. :( I had to have her put down in October. After her, in early January our outdoor kitty (she hung out with the chickens) disappeared. We are so very sad, and miss dear, sweet, Cuddles all the time. She was so special and loved being with the hens. She thought she was one of them. We suspect she left the chicken yard and coyotes got her. Breaks my heart! Lastly, in March, one of our dogs killed my silly, recently blind hen, Flash. It was HORRIBLE! Poor Flash wandered where she shouldn't have gone. In a split second, she was gone. I cried and cried for hours.
I feel sad about them all. I know these things happen when we have pets, that they do get ill and die, but it is terribly hard. They are a part of our families and our lives. We still miss them and grieve when they die.
I didn't mean to ramble on about my pets, but I just wanted to let you know just how much I understand. I miss them all every single day. I hope that in time, you can enjoy your memories of your friends and know that they loved you and had a wonderful life with you.
{{{{{hugs}}}} to you and your hubby too!
Stacy
I am so far behind in all my groups as you can tell by me not posting but I was looking you up and it breaks my heart to read this.
ReplyDeleteNothing I can say will help you with the missing and sadness now but I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that you are blessed by them taking you into their lives. (Yes, I know you said you took the stray in and all but we really don't own cats, they own us.) You have provided a nice home for them filled with love and they love you, try and take some comfort in that. It really is better to have them and love them for whatever time we can than not to have known them at all. Although I do know it sure don't feel like the pain is worth it once they go but really....it is. Rejoice your time with them and let that fill the hole in your heart instead.
What a wonderful tribute to your fur children! I recently lost my cat, Onyx (12 years old). He got out and would not come in--he just walked away and out of my life. His litter mate, Willow is still with me. We grieved together and she has been very clingy but seems to be adjusting. I know you miss them both. Be comforted by the wonderful memories of how they have enriched your life.
ReplyDeleteYour post is such a loving tribute to your beloved friends and furry family. My sincere heart felt thought are with you. Another "cat loving" crafter.
ReplyDeleteDeb M
Hi Christie,
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to let you know what a beautiful tribute you have written about Indy and Maui. I have been truely touch by your love and your prose for these 2 beloved family pets.
Your story telling is a wonderful gift to the reader, and oh, so very touching indeed. I too have been thru the lose of a beloved pet and know the pain.
My deepest sympathy to you and your family in this time of lose.
new subbie
de
...i have enjoyed looking through the life of your adorable cats & at the same time my tears just fall at the sadness of it all, this is such a touching & deeply moving post...I lost my beloved cat at 19 & half so I feel your loss...((hugs for you both)) Mel :)
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain at your loss. I too have recently lost my Beautiful (that's her name) some on ran over her with no regard for her they just left here there. Our street is very quite and a caldsac so there is no traffic at all except the residents. I have been heart broken and Jazz my other cat is like your Indy and she is now lossing all her fur. I am hoping that she will recover and not die of a broken heart. Jazz and the Seth (the dog) get on really well together but Jazz's main companion was Beautiful. Hugs to you both and you know when the time is right another stray or two will want to take up residence with you and it will be like Indy and Maui are telling them that's the place to be. Hug.
ReplyDeleteOH Christie- I just saw your posting about your family pets. Im soooo sorry, I understand the tremendous grief you must have gone thru & may still be struggling with. I have lost my share of family pets over the years & it never gets any easier! I had to put my little lovebird down last year, he used to sleep on my fiances chest every nite, it was too cute & sooo sweet to watch! they leave such a void when they go, hope you have healed somewhat, my heart & prayers go out to you & your hubby. Diane Moser
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for your losses. I know people tell you I know how you feel but I can honestly say yes I do. You see we had to put our 18 year old lab to sleep it was the hardest thing I have had to do. She was my comforter she knew if something was wrong with me before anyone else. I told her you let mommy know when your done and she did her tired body couldnt go any more. I wrote along letter to put in her grave it was all about her life and she did some silly things. My heart was broke into. The vet told me to make sure I payed extra attention to Lady bug and I did. I didnt want to leave her side. But no matter what I did wasnt good enough she passed away during the night. She was my heart where I was she was she was 16 years old and the vet said its not uncommon they know. Raven and Lady bug spent all day together when we were at work she lost her sister and her best friend.
ReplyDeleteI didnt think I would ever get through this but as they say time will heal you. Its been 4 years and I still expect them to greet me at the door.
I have 2 cats one that is very fat and one that is my husband girlfriend not really she is with him all the time and mine is with me all the time. I dont know how I would of gotten through this with out her. I still miss them everyday it does get easier to go on but the whole in your heart will never close completely. So just know we will see them at the rainbow bridge until then we have wonderful amazing memories.
I just wanted you to know how sorry I am. I used to read your blog everyday and then life just kinda took a turn and I lost you but I am so happy I found you again.
HUGGS
Terrie